bitter?

2007-03-13T22:43:00.000-07:00

i hate guys.
i despise all of them (brothers and dad NOT INCLUDED)
i actually wish we live in the world of Vandread wherein girls kill guys and literally beats d crap out of each and everyone of them.
i laugh out at girls whenever i see one crying over her man.
i believe in what Sue told her sister Ai Lin (so close):

"not every woman needs a man to protect her like you do!"
yes. i agree.
am i that bitter?
i dont really think so...
i've fell in love once too, you know...
with some guy, i must say.
he was, like, PURRFECt (not really, im just being delusional hahaha :P) handsome (really...?), tall and athletic... he's better in academics than me, too. totaly my type.
we were doin fine, you see. until ive seen something i shouldnt have seen. and it ruined us in just a snap.
did he love me?
i kept asking dat.
was everything just a lie? a big fat lie?
i love you.
yeah right. in your face.
i can no longer believe him.
he wondered why the sudden change of heart.
i couldnt tell him what ive learn.
i cant tell him what i felt.
i cant tell him that, for once, i really thought everything, i mean everything, was real.
was d dream over?
am i to wake up?
come on dude, for pete's sake, wake up.
wake up to reality.
and i did.
but my questions were not yet answered.
am i just to cry?
to ache everytime i see him with her?
did he ever loved me?
i love you.
those three words were used often, they're not enough.

nami tamaki sang:

"The further we are apart, the nearer I feel you are.
Even my loneliness turns into strength... when I think of you.

In a time where streets, people and dreams change,
I could only oppose them.
I still did not realize,
That there are things that can't be conveyed even with words.

My lost dreams of wanting to hold you by my side,
For them, you said, "Don't give up!"

The further we are apart, the nearer I feel you are.
Even my loneliness turns into strength... when I think of you.
The thing that pierces the gentle chest, that's a fragment of my dream.
Believe once more in the the miracle that is our chanced meeting.

In the days without you, I've stopped moving.
But now I am walking out of here.
All the coincidences we shared, certainly
They all have their meanings.

When our dreams comes true one by one, and we meet again,
The coincidences become destiny.

If even the torn promises can change into vows,
Can we also change back to the two of us from the time we met at that place?
The dear faces that resemble "kindness".

I can see with my eyes closed, I know you are here without our hands touching.

Even if I can't see the astrayed answers tomorrow,
I carry the truth known as "today" in order to meet you.

The further we are apart, the nearer I feel you are.
Even my loneliness turns into strength... when I think of you.
The thing that pierces the gentle chest, that's a fragment of my dream.
As it is, believe once more in the the miracle that is our chanced meeting."

it is destiny.

i am not looking for a perfect guy.
nor waiting for the perfect time.
perhaps...
im just waiting for some one,
a man,
just one guy,
man enough,
to prove to me...
that not all men are the same.
just one...
and i'll be fine.
*whew* d pain ,somehow, is relieved.
thanks for hearin' me out :P

meLOdiEs Of LifE

bitter?